I hate this!

20 May

Recently I’ve started to feel less and less like myself. I’m really hating what is going on around me and I feel like I am always doing stupid things that I can’t control. Normally, I wouldn’t let the little things get to me, but now I feel like if I do one little thing wrong its going to tip me over the edge. I’ve never wanted to go back as to how I was like during University. But its getting worse and I think I should really see a doctor about it.

I am scaring myself more than anything. I feel like I’m caving in from pressure that I can’t escape from. It really is getting too much. Which is why I think its time to see if its just stress or something much more. I don’t want to worry other people but there is really a limit I can take.

Having this cough that I’ve had for two weeks now is annoying me. I know that worrying and stress isn’t helping but I don’t really know what else I can do. I am working a lot recently. So I’m not really relaxing and taking my mind off work related things. Its all building on top of one another.

I don’t want things to get really really bad as I don’t really know what I’m capable of. I just know that I am getting really close to my limit.


Plans for the Summer

03 May

Well apart from getting my house ready for me to live in, I’m thinking of making one of my rooms into my Art Studio!!! My parents house has a Music room (not a small one either) and I have a room in my house that can be an office or a studio. So an Art studio it is!! I might as well make the most of the room as I’m always drawing when I’m not at my part-time job. I doubt anyone would really buy my paintings. Although some people have told me that I should sell some. At least its worth a try right?!

I actually now can’t wait for my studio to be done. Strange how one comment from a friend can give you a nudge into following it through.

I dunno about selling my work online, I’ve made prints available here on Deviant Art. But nothing has really come out of it. But I’m not gonna let it get me down. I have to just keep drawing. I might start to experiment with colours more in my paintings/sketches. Something that is a bit more vibrant. But will have to see where the creativity takes me.

I honestly don’t know how I’m going to go about getting my work seen but I hope something will come up. I’ve been told to go to the local library and see if they would know about something. Otherwise, I think it will be through word of mouth.

Listening to: Maja «» 2PM.
Reading: Chapter 38 «» Dangeki Daisy.
Watching: Movie «» Only You Can Hear Me.
Mood: Excited, Hopeful, Cautious.

My Drama List

04 Apr

I decided to join My Drama List just to see if it would tell me how many Drama’s I’ve seen already and I was shocked that I’ve seen around 100 in the past year alone (>.<)!

If you are a member there, ADD ME!!

Listening to: Oops!! «» Super Junior.
Reading: Chapter 56 «» Orange Marmalade.
Watching: Episode 10 «» Skip Beat Live Action.
Mood: Excited, Hopeful, Cautious.

New Page!

26 Mar

I’ve made a new page to list all the Korean movies that I’ve watched. Just to keep tabs on what I have and haven’t seen yet.

In addition, I’ve also edited the layout on both Korean and Japanese movie list pages, so you can see how I personally scored them. But just so you know, Japanese is still my favourite!! I just wanted to see what Korean movies were like/